musings from the studio and beyond ~
dawn chandler’s reflections on art and life. . . .
go ahead, walk through it
Thirty minutes ago I emerged from the mall where my PO box is. I had just dumped my massive annual springtime greeting card mailing at the post office and was feeling a bit jubilant. Thirty minutes before that, an all-day soaking spring rain (a rarity out here) finally lifted, and now the world was all sparkly — another reason for feeling jubilant. So when I came across a huge puddle in the middle of the sidewalk, I didn’t hesitate: I walked straight through it — but slowly. I looked down at my feet as I did so. I was reminded of being a little girl, doing the same thing, slowly, as if to savor the rarity of puddles. As though considering doing something naughty and wondering if I could get away with it. Or maybe the slowness came simply from a feeling of awe, of I can’t believe I really get to do this!
This afternoon as I walked through the puddle I looked up from my sloshing boots to see a slightly grizzled man in white t-shirt and worn Carharrt work pants approaching the sidewalk from the parking lot; we smiled at each other. He said, “You know, I used to do that when I was five, or six, or seven.“
To which I responded, “And I figure why not do it when we’re fifty or sixty?“
He threw up both his hands with joy and exclaimed or “seventy or eighty or ninety?!“
Go ahead. Walk through a puddle today — especially if they’re a rarity where you live.
And maybe even if they aren’t.
Psst…. See and read about one of my favorite puddles here.
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~ Dawn Chandler
Santa Fe , New Mexico
Free from social media since 2020
eagle nest gold
It’s become a cherished late August ritual for me: Driving the Enchanted Circle through Northern New Mexico.
I started the tradition two years ago…. it was the last drive my sweet pup and I did together before she died.
As a tribute to her I made the journey again last summer on the anniversary of our last day together. A year later though rather than my eyes being clouded with tears, they were filled with color — the supremely rich color of New Mexico in late summer. This time my sight was dazzled by ultramarine-shadowed clouds, violet asters and roadside sunflowers. The first aspens were starting to turn up near Red River, and as I descended down the east side of Bobcat pass, the clouds began to open up and reveal cerulean skies.
I don’t know how many times I’ve driven through the Moreno Valley, but it’s surely in the hundreds. Shame on me that I’d never ventured to Eagle Nest Lake State Park. For Pete’s sake it’s only a mile off the main road! Yet always I’ve been in a hurry t to get somewhere else. (Sounds familiar).
Well this day not only was I going to visit the park, but I was going to have a picnic there.
Yet when I pulled in, nothing had prepared me for the masses of gold daisies that covered the slope down to the water.
I knew immediately that I wanted to paint the scene, and took dozens of photos in an attempt to get a good angle.
Finally this winter I got around to painting it.
Each morning I worked on the painting, I started with a little warm-up watercolor which I painted on Multimedia Artboard.
Multimedia Artboard is an interesting substrate. Imagine a very stiff and starched piece of paper — it’s kind of like that. It’s thin, very rigid, durable, archival and is suitable for oil and water-based paints.
Theoretically it accepts watercolors, but watercolors react strangely with the surface.
Anyone who has painted with watercolors knows that they are notoriously difficult to control. But trying to control the flow of watercolor on Multimedia Artboard? Damn near impossible. And yet….I find that kind of thrilling. I put down the paint where I want it, then walk away wondering what I’m going to find when I come back. Always I’m surprised.
Here are six of my watercolor “warm-ups” of my Eagle Nest vista. Hardly a speck of control. Yet I love that loose and surprising energy of just letting the paint do its thing.
The “real” painting, titled Eagle Nest Gold, which I’ve done in my “traditional” representational style is of course much more controlled and a whole lot less wild than the watercolor warm-ups.
We’re standing on the west edge of Eagle Nest Lake, looking northeast to Philmont’s Baldy Mountain (left) and Touch-Me-Not (the long flat peak on the right).
Perhaps it seems unseasonable to be thinking of late summer as I write this in mid-April, just as everything is coming into green. Yet, As I consider this painting just now, I’m so looking forward to making my annual drive again in a few months. I’m swept back to that late August afternoon when I was surrounded by those intensely vivid gold flowers. Even now the memory of them catches my breath. I remember, too, how the clouds were in constant motion, creating a dance of shadows across the Sangre de Cristos.
What a glorious day that was — perfect for a special anniversary. I just wish my sweet pup could have been there with me.
But of course she was, if only in spirit. And she’ll be there again, when I return.
Eagle Nest Gold is painted in oil on a 24” x 36” canvas and is available in my Etsy shop.
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~ Dawn Chandler
Santa Fe , New Mexico
Free from social media since 2020
6 x 3 x 60 = peace
I stepped outside, crouched on the pavement and sat down on my dusty front door stoop. In my nine years living here, I don’t think I’d ever sat on the stoop. Maybe because the view from that angle is mostly pavement, concrete, stuccoed wall and taillights. This morning though all of that was warm from early spring sunshine. Once settled on the threshold, I set the alarm on my watch.
And then I did nothing.
For one minute.
For one minute I simply sat there.
I took a couple of deep breaths and looked around.
What I might notice? A sight? A sound?
Something flicked across the sidewalk — a tiny dead leaf.
I leaned over and gently picked it up with forefinger and thumb. And there, for a few moments, I felt delight. For within faded patterning of brown decay, an exquisite little winter garden seemed etched within the leaf’s coloring. On a surface no larger than a small postage stamp, were what looked like tiny clusters of pale white flowers against a tawny background.
My watch chimed.
I cupped the leaf delicately in my palm returned inside and placed the leaf beside me at my desk.
I then set my alarm again — this time for three hours later, and another for three hours after that.
Six times during the day — every three hours, from 6:00am to 9:00pm, my alarm goes off. Whenever possible I stop whatever I am doing, step outside, set a timer for one minute, take a few deep breaths, and pause. Peace flows over me.
It’s the simplest of practices. Yet it brings a wealth of calm awareness — just as Rick Rubin promised in his recent conversation with Krista Tippett:
You do one minute of awareness practice on every third hour. So you do it at noon, at three, at six, at nine….it’s just one minute and whatever’s going on, even if you’re driving, you can still do a dedicated minute of awareness while you’re driving. You don’t have to pull over to do it…It’s just really being…knowing that it’s 60 seconds of true awareness. It’s beautiful. It’s a beautiful practice.
Yes, it is.
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~ Dawn Chandler
Santa Fe , New Mexico
Free from social media since 2020
unphotographable* ~ a bosque blessing
We arrived an hour before sunrise. 14°. Too cold to simply park and wait. Usually we don’t have so much time to spare. Usually we go park by the Observation Deck where always other cars are parked. There we stand by water’s edge, our hands thrust deep in our pockets, our breath emitting small clouds of frosted of vapor as we wait the few minutes till the sun and geese rise across the water.
Instead this morning we slowly drive the Northern Loop.
Years ago, on our first visit to the Bosque to see the famous snow geese, we didn’t know where we were or what we were doing. All we knew was to be there at sunrise, when supposedly the geese rise up en mass. But that first morning we were clueless as to where to find the snow geese. We didn’t know the roads or the layout of the land. We arrived ridiculously early in the blackest hours of morning and drove around blindly, trying to figure out where to go. Realizing that no other cars seem to be where we were, we turned around to head back toward the entrance and look for cars of early morning birders, who surely knew more than we did.
We accelerated, backtracking down the dark dirt lane, only to have something in the distance catch our headlights:
Two enormous bull elks crossing the road.
In our scores of visits to the Bosque since, we’ve never again seen an elk. Snow geese and cranes and raptors and ducks and songbirds, turkeys, javelina, and deer, bobcats, and even — yes — even mountain lions, we have seen. But never again have we seen elk. We’ve spotted their tracks — we know several places they clearly frequent. But not since that first dark, dark morning a decade ago have we seen elk.
I was thinking of this as we made our way down the shadowed lane, passing the place of that one and only elk encounter ten years ago. “I wonder if we’ll ever see an elk again?“ The road narrowed into turns, as red willow and leafless trees drew in close. The road then curved west, and opened up as large fallow fields extended from either side of the lane. There, just ahead, in the north field on our right were several large four-legged beings.
Could it be?
My heart beat faster, as I grabbed my binoculars.
Deer.
Damnit, just deer.
Sighs of resignation.
We rolled on quietly, past a loosely gnarled line of trees and brush that cut midway through the north field, perpendicular to the road. Daylight was advancing softly, as the fields glowed with tawny tones of rust and bronze, copper and gold. The sky was a cloudless slab of palest rose marble.
Something moved off in the distance of the field – a large dark shape with an area of pale. Near it was another dark shape, and beside that, another.
Elk.
Five magnificent elk.
Four bulls and one cow.
Slowly, ever so slowly, we emerged from our car to lean against the side. The elk froze as they watched us. We held our breath, only breathing easily again as they returned to grazing.
In the field between the elk and us was a slightly elevated area — an old grassed-over road that cut through the field. As we watched the elk, something on the old road moved.
Coyote.
She was trotting toward us, away from the elk, when suddenly she stopped. Ears pointed upright, she stared at us. Then she darted east, her brindle coat blending and disappearing into the dried stalks of the field.
All was silent as we stood watching the elk. No tires on gravel. No voices or car doors opening and closing as we usually hear. Nothing but an occasional bird trill. A distant owl.
Then suddenly the hush sound of wind through tree leaves rustled overhead. Except there were no trees anywhere near us.
We looked up as a wave of ducks moved just a few feet over our heads — 20 or 30 of them in a wide vee formation. Not another sound came from them. Nothing but the soft wind sound from their wings. Barely open your lips and softly, slowly, exhale. That’s the sound, we heard overhead.
We watched their graceful line undulate over the elk and then disappear in the pale sky.
A minute later another whisper of ducks moved over our heads.
Then another.
And another.
Again, and again, and again and again.
Off in the distance from the woods at the far edge of the field we heard the sound of gurgling laughter.
Wild turkeys.
The hair on the backs of our necks tingled.
We beamed smiles at each other, grateful for arriving “too early.”
Grateful for this blessing of the Bosque.
* This post is inspired by the Maria Popova’s offering: “Sometimes, a painting in words is worth a thousand pictures. I think about this more and more, in our compulsively visual culture, which increasingly reduces what we think and feel and see — who and what we are — to what can be photographed. I think of Susan Sontag, who called it “aesthetic consumerism” half a century before Instagram. In a small act of resistance, I offer The Unphotographable….a lovely image in words drawn from centuries of literature: passages transcendent and transportive, depicting landscapes and experiences radiant with beauty and feeling beyond what a visual image could convey.”
~ Maria Popova, The Marginalian
If you enjoyed this post, you might also enjoy my post from September 2022 A Benediction.
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~ Dawn Chandler
Santa Fe , New Mexico
Free from social media since 2020
my greatest joy today
You would have thought my greatest joy today was spending 3+ hours in my studio painting. Especially doing so while listening to a conversation with a wholly inspiring mastermind of creativity. Or signing my name, finally, to a painting I’ve been working on for weeks.
But no. My greatest joy today came this afternoon, when working on my computer and suddenly a flash of movement outside the window caught my eye.
It was a tiny wren — a Bewick’s Wren.
Wren to my mind, is one of the most beautiful words in the English language, and denotes one of Earth’s loveliest beings. Sadly wren is also one of the Lost Words like magpie and clover the Oxford Junior Dictionary removed in 2007 to clear way for words like voicemail, celebrity and MP3 player.* Of all the birds she fed and observed out our kitchen window, my mother’s face seemed to light up most when a wren appeared.
I am the same.
My mother’s mother fed birds, too, though she lacked the animal whisperer sense that coursed through my mother’s veins. I remember that Gram, too, enjoyed seeing wrens, but that she very definitely didn’t like bluejays. When I asked her why she said “because they kill other birds’ eggs.” Evidently she didn’t know that wrens do that, too; I’m not sure if my mother was even aware of the wren’s jay-like murderous instinct. I doubt that it would have mattered much to her if she had.
What charmed my mother about the wren, I think, is how chipper and cheerful their twitchy movements and melodious song seem to be.
Who knows if they even posses the capacity to be “cheerful”?
But certainly they make me so.
*I don’t know if the OJD has brought back wren and the other lost words in more recent editions, but I hope they have.
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Stay safe. Be kind.
~ Dawn Chandler
Santa Fe , New Mexico
Free from social media since 2020